I have thought about sitting down to start this post a million times. For so long, I have been anxious to even type the words because I am superstitious. And I have been terrified to do something as trivial as typing it out that could potentially jinx it. Crazy? Yes. But this has been a dream that I wasn’t sure would ever come true. BUT, I have some exciting news to share that has felt like a long time coming! At the same time, it is a change that I am not sure will ever NOT feel scary. I have struggled so much with when the right time, if ever, would be to make this change. It has been ‘official’ for a few weeks now, and I feel like I can finally say it out loud.
I left my full time job and am now a full time blogger!
It still doesn’t feel real. I am not sure it ever will, and I am pinching myself every single day that this is my new reality.
A Little Backstory
First, a little backstory. I have been working full time since I graduated college. I got my bachelors, and jumped right into the working world. I started working on my MBA shortly after we got married, and found out we were pregnant with Jackson right as the program started. Grad school and first trimester of pregnancy. I cannot say that is something I recommend. But I survived! I took a 12 week maternity leave with Jackson, and then jumped back into school to complete my MBA. I finished up while I was pregnant with Lincoln (again-that final semester of grad school while being in my first trimester of pregnancy was FUN). I took another 12 week maternity leave with Lincoln while we were living with my in-laws and building our home. While I loved maternity leave, Lincoln was a difficult baby, and I was SO ready to head back to work after my summer off. I actually interviewed for and received a promotion during my maternity leave. The idea of returning to work for a new opportunity was so exciting!
I started my career in healthcare as a business professional, and made a few job changes within our health system. My final job in health care was a leadership position, something I always thought was a step towards my ‘end goal’. However, as I continued to grow my blog and Instagram, I realized my passions were elsewhere. So, I started looking for a job in marketing. I ended up finding one that was the PERFECT fit for what I was looking for, and I was so very excited to make the leap. In fact, my blog and Instagram were key factors in me landing that job. You can read about my leap and changes job industries in this blog post!
To be honest, I truly thought that changing careers and leaving health care was going to be my magic answer. The company I joined was wonderful. They valued culture, treated their employees like gold, and always supported me in prioritizing being a mother first. I am truly thankful to them beyond measure for how they cared for me as a young mother. And still, I felt like I couldn’t find my groove. I constantly wondered if having a work from home job would be a better fit for me. As Jackson started kindergarten, I felt like I had been punched in the gut every single time I wasn’t able to make it to an event. I had never minded working full time until I had a school aged child. Something about missing those precious milestones as his need for his mama slowly shrinks just crushed me. My job was very accommodating, but it just isn’t realistic to work full time and also be present at every. single. school. function. I found myself in such a weird limbo. I know myself well enough to know that I am not cut out to be a full time stay at home mom. I need breaks from my kids, and applaud any mother who is with her babies all day, every day. I am just not one of those moms! However, I also wanted to be able to be at all of the things. I wanted to volunteer every time the classroom asked. I wanted to go on every field trip, and I wanted to go have lunch in the cafeteria whenever I wanted. I felt so torn because I wanted to work, but I also wanted to be a mom first.
How I Knew It Was Time To Make the Leap
Fast forward to 2020, and sh*t hit the fan. Quite literally. We still aren’t anywhere close to being recovered from Covid, and if 2020 taught us anything, its that the things we take for granted can be taken away in the blink of an eye. We started distance learning (that word will be a trigger for me for the rest of my days; distance learning was NOT our friend), and I started working full time from home. While the circumstances were a literal nightmare, I also found myself thrown into the unique position of being able to learn what it is actually like to work from home. It was a very unique ‘blessing’ that allowed me to see how I would handle being home all of the time!
I would always get so frustrated as a blogger, especially in the winter, when it literally felt like there weren’t enough hours in the day. It was always dark when I went to work, and dark when I got home. It may seem silly, but when brands are working with you and expecting a certain level of quality in your content, lighting is everything. In the past, I would spend hours every weekend shooting photos so that I had things prepared for the following week. It was my only option. Once Covid hit, I saw the silver lining that I could now maximize every minute of every lunch break or pretty snow fall to snap a picture or shoot photos for a campaign. Having 10 minutes here or there to get things done that always had to be saved for the weekend was a HUGE shift in my business here.
Mike and I aren’t ones to jump feet first, so this decision was not made lightly. It is a risk, but one that feels right for our family. Our boys are still in school and will go to daycare this summer (this is 100% a JOB and believe every blogger who tells you they work at least 40 hours per week!) But, now I can keep them home whenever they have a day off of school. Now, keeping them home on Fridays in the summer so we can have a long weekend can happen. Now, if I want to end early for the day to take them to the park to enjoy a beautiful day, I can. I am definitely still working on finding my groove. One promise I have made to myself is to maximize my time during the weekend so that I can have my weekends back. I am so excited to be able to pour 100% of my energy into this space, and am so excited for what is to come.
It goes without saying, but none of this would be possible without the support of each and every one of you. I am living my dream, both professionally and as a mother. And it is because you all choose to shop my links, ‘like’ my posts, and support me in a world where you could support SO many. You choose to support me, and saying thank you will never be enough! Buckle up, we’re in for a ride and I’m so excited to be taking this leap of faith with you all!